My Alcoholism & Recovery

Yes, I have changed, it is fairly easy to see in my life. Just stopping drinking and drugging makes quite a big change anyway; but I have changed much more than that. I know this, my friends know this, the people I live with see it every day - but every now and again someone wants to drag me back to the person I was.

I was in the supermarket shopping and met someone that I had not seen for a few years. I had drunk with them on occasion, so they knew some of my drinking history and how out of control I could get once I had started drinking. They had seen it with their own eyes.

Excuses the aside. When I stopped drinking I changed my phone number as I was still getting calls from some people that I had drunk with asking me to go drinking with them. He was one of them. So basically to survive in the beginning of my sober life I had to cut off a lot of people, as I could not then say no. I can now, thankfully.

We exchanged pleasantries asking general questions. He looked like hell. The same way that I would have all the time. But the way he related to me was the interesting part for me. He looked down on me. Kinda funny really. Commenting on my current job he made it sound crap, like it was worth nothing as I had it. A thing that never happens to me with my current friends and new people I meet, who seem interested as my job is out of the usual a little.

I passed him again leaving the supermarket and I waved goodbye as I did not want to join him again for some more conversation. He shouted over - Is that a load of drink for tonight in there?

I am so lucky.