Running from the Past
I have been hiding for a long time. I have avoided the lime light in any way whatsoever. I have avoid sticking my head above the paraquat. (spelling?)
Because of this I am failing in my life - not a great thing to see about my self. I stop doing things just before they become good, I run away still, years after stopping drinking and drugging.
I have been so scared for so long of people knowing about my mad life, the life that I have left far behind - one that bares no resemblance to how I live now, the life that was drinking, drugging, sometime jail because of theses two. I have been scared shit less of it and have tried desperately to hide from it.
However because of that hiding I am tense, anxious, nervous; I don’t enjoy what I have now - and I have a bloody good life - everyone says so - every sees it - expect me. I am still on guard…
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Comment from James
Time: December 5, 2007, 10:59 pm
I run from my past too. Sometimes, I feel like I’m trying so hard to get away from it that I forget where it is and run right back into it again. Then I remember that as long as I keep it in the past, that I don’t have to be that person anymore. Good luck with your continued recovery. 
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