My Alcoholism & Recovery

I have got used to the idea that I wake up on Saturdays and I am sober, that I remember the night before, that I don’t have that brain racking in my head wondering what I did, where I was, and what did I say to people.

It is a simple matter of record that I operated on auto pilot while drinking.  I did many things and have no record of them in my head, and frighteningly for many hours at a time.  Since stopping drinking I have not woke up in bed with some one and wondered who they are.  I have not woke up in bed with someone and wondered if I had sex, did I do anything, what is their name?

Blackouts in the beginning  I did not care about for many years, even though I woke up in the strangest places and did some very crazy things while in blackouts.  But towards the end I got very frightened of my blackout, frightened of what would happen to me while in that state.

I am happy to report I have not had one for a long time now, may it continue.