My Alcoholism & Recovery

God, I just think that life would be so much simpler if had never been a drinker - if I had never been or still am an alcoholic. Yeah, perhaps one of those days of just feeling sorry for myself, but it is still not pleasant.

I often wonder if non-alcoholic just feel the same way I do. Not good enough, ready to be thrown out of everywhere - ready to be told I should leave - yeah leave where-ever it is. I just want a rest.

And there’s the rub, I got a rest from drinking or using. It switched my brain off or into some sort of auto-pilot, I left mentally - and god I miss it…

As you can tell today is not a good day, and yet nothing bad is happening. Go figure.